the_huffster | Serious lack of updates

Sorry about the lack of updates. Things have kinda been....weird.

My dad had his sleep test last night since the doctors wanted to see if sleep apnea was the cause for his heart acting up. He doesn't have it, so now we're back to square one where we know nothing. So the doctors are thinking of more tests to run to see what's up with my dad's heart.

Yay waiting -rolls eyes-

I leave for San Francisco in one month and 10 days, and move into my dorm in one month and 12 days. I'm excited, but it's hit me recently that I'm gonna be completely on my own. No friends to help me out when I need it, and no family around at all. It's kinda scary knowing that I'll be in this city (which I've never been to) with no one I know.

But I can't wait to start. Okay, sure...half of my family doesn't really get why I dropped college to go to film school, but I'm not doing this for them. I'm doing this cos I've wanted to do this since I was a little kid and now I have the chance to do so. And even though I'm still getting shit from some friends about my choice, I could really care less if anyone supports me in this or not.

Now, because I need to rant about religion and forcing family members into something they don't want. So if you don't read this, read no further.

Now that that's outta the way, I wanna start off by saying that I've never been a religious person and some people I know blame that on my parents raising me and my brother with the mindset of letting us chose our religion when we were ready. But I don't think that's the case, because my parents are Christian and I've just never really felt all that religious.

So two years ago, I decided to become Buddhist. My parents went with it, but my brother gave me shit from the very beginning. Then my friends found out and have been saying that I need to be saved for my mistake of picking the wrong belief system. It's been going on for two years, but I never really paid any mind to it. Until tonight.

I'm sitting in the living room with my family when my mom says out of the blue, 'Buddhism isn't working for you'. From then on out, my mom and brother tried to shove Christianity down my throat. My dad just kinda pretended it wasn't happening. Then my brother started calling me a Satanist for saying, 'Jesus Christ, leave me alone and stop trying force something on me!'.

I love being Buddhist, but I hate the shit I'm getting for it. People either think it's a phase I'm going through, or they try too force their fucking beliefs down my throat. People don't seem to understand I'm not religious because I've never been given a reason to believe in a God, and (after doing some research) I found that I agreed with the Buddhist beliefs- one of them being not believe one being is superior to another.

I don't go around trying to shove my beliefs down everyone else's' throats or talking sit about their religion, so I don't know why I can't get the same respect.

And because I don't wanna end this on a rant, I'm thinking about getting another tattoo. I talked to my dad about today while we were getting pizza, and he said it seemed like I was being smart about this decision, as I was when I got my first two. I already know what I want, so now I just need to get into the flow of things at school before getting a job and looking at different tattoo places to get a price estimate (and to see who would be the best to do the tattoo) so I can save up.

Serious lack of updates

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