So I realized that I've been neglecting my LJ

[the_huffster]

And for that, I apologize. I'm gonna fix that, so prepare for a long update.



So, good news. I passed all my classes last semester! I got the following grades:

Respect for Acting- B
Successful Storytelling- B+
Editing- C+
Cinematic Storytelling- C

The bad news, my Cinematic Storytelling teacher has yet to put in any of the grades on to the transcripts. Which is just fan-fucking-tastic.



So my Christmas was awesome. This year was Christmas at my house, so everyone came down. I got some really awesome stuff:

Merlin calendar
Merlin keychain
How I Met Your Mother Seasons 2-3
Glee Season 1
Oz (from BtVS) bust
The Hunger Games Trilogy boxset
A bunch of gift cards
DVDs
Uther Pendragon action figure
And some more stuff that I can't name off the top of my head

And then on News Year, my brother got drunk for his very first time playing quarters with me, my dad, and my uncle. My brother is the funniest drunk ever! That 17 year old boy cannot hold his alcohol and he is so lucky I was the one helping him into bed that night, otherwise my parents would have found out he smokes on occasion. But for as drunk as he was, he remembered everything the next day and had no hangover.


So now I'm back in good old San Francisco for the spring semester, and am liking my classes so far. My schedule is as reads:

Monday: Motion Picture Language, 12:00-6:20pm
Tuesday: Editing 2, 8:30-11:20am; Intro to Producing, 7:00-9:50pm
Wednesday: Composition for the Artist, 12:00-2:50pm

And then a four day weekend. And as for that guy from my editing class last semester, it's a no go. He kept flaking on plans that we would make and then, in a bout of temporary insanity, I asked him out on one date last Tuesday. Four days later I got no answer and when he talked to me, he acted like it never happened. Then later that night, he messaged me back on Facebook (since I don't see him cos we have no classes together) and basically said that I was great friend material, but not girlfriend material. And the reasons he gave had to do with how I acted, the way I dressed, and he insinuated that it had something to do with the fact that I don't look like an anorexic skank or a supermodel.

Of course I'm crushed and hurt and a million other things, but I'll trudge on like I always do. Good thing I have classes on Valentine's day, not that I had any plans anyways. But it'll be a nice distraction.

I've come to a crossroads concerning my fics and videos. I have ideas that I want to execute and projects that I want to finish, but I'm lacking in motivation. And I believe it's because of the lack of reviews my projects get. Why should I put forth effort for something when I get no feedback or anything?

I've sat down multiple times and tried to finish some of the fics I have to finish, but knowing that I'll get hardly any reviews (a part from the few people who always review my things, which I thank you for) doesn't exactly make me wanna put any effort into it.

The same thing goes with my videos.

I dunno. Maybe I've lost my talent or the fandoms have really stopped caring as much. Either way, motivation is hard for me to find.

Comments

[yessikg.livejournal.com]

Congrats on passing all your classes!

The bad news, my Cinematic Storytelling teacher has yet to put in any of the grades on to the transcripts. Which is just fan-fucking-tastic.

I'm familiar with transcript woes, I'm in my second semester of my junior year and I think it's finally all there *sigh*

Merlin calendar
Merlin keychain
How I Met Your Mother Seasons 2-3
Glee Season 1
Oz (from BtVS) bust
The Hunger Games Trilogy boxset
A bunch of gift cards
DVDs
Uther Pendragon action figure
And some more stuff that I can't name off the top of my head

That's some cool stuff! BTW did you like S4 of Merlin?

I would kill to not have classes every single day :(

And the reasons he gave had to do with how I acted, the way I dressed, and he insinuated that it had something to do with the fact that I don't look like an anorexic skank or a supermodel.

I'm so surprised, NOT! I had one boyfriend last year and he made me realize I don't really want a significant other right now, maybe in a few years when I can deal with the drama.

I spent my Valentine's Day watching Stargate SG-1, CSI, and Buffy. It was a really good day ;)

I've sat down multiple times and tried to finish some of the fics I have to finish, but knowing that I'll get hardly any reviews (a part from the few people who always review my things, which I thank you for) doesn't exactly make me wanna put any effort into it.

I know what you mean, I don't get much feedback which makes me doubt if I'm any good. I have realized that I really appreciate feedback but I don't need it. My vids (or whatever else I do) are the way I express my love and passion for a particular show/couple and as long as I feel that then I'm not going to stop. I guess what I'm trying to say is, do you still want to make the vids and fanfics? If you do then what does it matter what other people think or don't think about them?

And that is officially the longest comment I have EVER posted XD

[lynnylou.livejournal.com]

Congratulations in passing your classes. As for your stories have you thought of posting them on a larger site such as ff.net or allthejellies the B/G community on LJ. It can help get your stories out to a wider audience.