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Life Changing Decisions
Apr. 13th, 2014 08:27 pmSo I have made a decision that, once again, is affecting my life.
My school have raised housing by $200 and that is something that I didn't need. Besides paying for my school, my parents are paying for my brother as well- and supporting us seeing as how neither one of us have jobs this semester. I feel guilty enough about my parents paying 50,000 bucks a year for me to go after a dream that even on my best days I'm not sure I'll accomplish.
I have on more year left and then I graduate from the Academy, but I've decided that I won't finish it in SF to save my parents money- 15,000 bucks per semester to be exact. That's 30,000 dollars a year. I'll be taking my remaining classes online, living at home again.
I don't want to leave my friends because they are some of the best people I know, but if anyone knows me then they know that I've never exactly been selfish when it comes to my family. And I don't want to know that I'm the reason my parents are barely getting buy.
After officially deciding this, I told my roommates (and two of my best friends) and this has resulted in Caitlin making a playlist dedicated to me. Although it's sounding a lot more like a funeral playlist, and it's making me even more sad about the fact that I won't be spending my last year with the crazy people that have been there for me for the three best, craziest, stressful, and funniest years of my life. I told them that I'll visit them, and I have every intention of doing that. Not because I feel like I should but because seeing as how I'm leaving a group of people that have become my family away from home behind, they deserve for me to visit and catch up on them to make sure they're still getting up to the crazy shenanagins that we get up to.
But...I have about 4 weeks left with them, so now is not the time to think about next year and be sad. I'll enjoy the "funeral" Caitlin is throwing me.
And on the bright side, my parents said that they'll put the money they're saving into helping me network. Which means I'll be going Splatterfest, Dallas Frightmare, and other horror conventions/film fests. And finally get business cards and a website. Now that that makes for what I'm giving up, but...I need to focus on the silver lining.
My school have raised housing by $200 and that is something that I didn't need. Besides paying for my school, my parents are paying for my brother as well- and supporting us seeing as how neither one of us have jobs this semester. I feel guilty enough about my parents paying 50,000 bucks a year for me to go after a dream that even on my best days I'm not sure I'll accomplish.
I have on more year left and then I graduate from the Academy, but I've decided that I won't finish it in SF to save my parents money- 15,000 bucks per semester to be exact. That's 30,000 dollars a year. I'll be taking my remaining classes online, living at home again.
I don't want to leave my friends because they are some of the best people I know, but if anyone knows me then they know that I've never exactly been selfish when it comes to my family. And I don't want to know that I'm the reason my parents are barely getting buy.
After officially deciding this, I told my roommates (and two of my best friends) and this has resulted in Caitlin making a playlist dedicated to me. Although it's sounding a lot more like a funeral playlist, and it's making me even more sad about the fact that I won't be spending my last year with the crazy people that have been there for me for the three best, craziest, stressful, and funniest years of my life. I told them that I'll visit them, and I have every intention of doing that. Not because I feel like I should but because seeing as how I'm leaving a group of people that have become my family away from home behind, they deserve for me to visit and catch up on them to make sure they're still getting up to the crazy shenanagins that we get up to.
But...I have about 4 weeks left with them, so now is not the time to think about next year and be sad. I'll enjoy the "funeral" Caitlin is throwing me.
And on the bright side, my parents said that they'll put the money they're saving into helping me network. Which means I'll be going Splatterfest, Dallas Frightmare, and other horror conventions/film fests. And finally get business cards and a website. Now that that makes for what I'm giving up, but...I need to focus on the silver lining.
